EPHEMERAL

by Mr.Kitty

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soarinblu It's difficult to describe how much I'm in love with this album... 100% of the 30 songs here are true works of art. I found this album through the amazing song that is 0% Angel but I cannot count out Bullet and Home for their catchy melodies. Favorite track: 0% Angel.
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Mike Lamb Mr. Kitty is one of the most exciting artists making music today. Favorite track: 0% Angel.
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Imagine Wagons Well damn. I already thought "TIME" was a complete masterpiece of an album, and then the absolute Madlad just went and put out an album filled to the brim with the most viscious of bangers, melodic trips and soul-wrenching Synth-ballads.

Not a single song isn't a fresh, welcome addition to this ingenious work of art. Plus, "Be Alive" is an incredible, infinitely danceable Banger.
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1.
Wait 04:22
tolle animam meam (x4) I was lost / You were there to find me When I joked / You were there to laugh I was sad / You could make me happy As I broke / You could put me back You were lost / I couldn’t find you Couldn’t laugh / When I needed light Didn’t know / You were this unhappy When you broke / What could I do There was no / Warning or a sign As you went / To the other side Every night / I am holding tears back I refuse / To ever say goodbye As a promise / I’ll remember You will never / Be in pain When the time comes / I’ll see you I am living / Another day
2.
From Liquid 03:45
In my time alone I died a million deaths A gaze into the glass To memories I have kept They show me who I’ve been The people I have hurt I lay myself to sleep My power will emerge Don’t you ever cry for me You could never tell me you’re sorry Get me far away from here (From liquid I’m drowning) As my body leaves a void Fill it up with memories that I’ve destroyed Burden me with hate and love (From liquid I’m choking) I used to have a heart With pain I never felt I tried to fall apart For damage I have dealt Through the broken glass My kingdom underneath The mirror looking back A monster made of me Don’t you ever cry for me You could never tell me you’re sorry Get me far away from here (From liquid I’m drowning) As my body leaves a void Fill it up with memories that I’ve destroyed Burden me with hate and love (From liquid I’m choking) Get me out of here (x4) (Chorus x2)
3.
My Weak Side 03:56
This part of me you cannot see It’s tightly tied to my demise I’ve built inside, A paradise For those who see with clarity I’ll show you my reality With confidence, I will confide No matter how hard I have tried I gave you up, I died inside It’s you, and I and my weak side (x2) I shed a tear but does it help A human form will be my shell I give myself, It’s all for you You give me purpose in a way I’ll grant your wish, do as you say My modesty begins to fade No matter how hard I have tried I gave you up, I died inside It’s you, and I and my weak side (x2)
4.
Here we are Once again I let you down It’s not the end Apologize, Now we’re friends Salted wounds Begin to swell The tension’s there We know it well You want it more, I can tell It not up to you, It’s up to me I’ll tell you how to set me free You take me home, I’ll be fine (x2) I was numb Through the night Your better half Held me tight It felt so wrong, This wasn’t right Through a lens My vision bleak There’s nothing more For you and me I’ll disconnect, As I leave It not up to you, It’s up to me I’ll tell you how to set me free You take me home, I’ll be fine (x2) Here we are Here we are Here we are now
5.
It was on a summer night At last I knew the time was right In the dark I finally met you Through the lights and heavy smoke The lust between us tends to show I’ll leave the crowd to get you closer The view is not the same without you It’s not the same without you It’s not the same without you (x2) In a bath of lavender You told me words I hadn’t heard The music played and nothing hurt me On my chest I let you cry I couldn’t find the reason why This moment seemed to last forever The view is not the same without you It’s not the same without you It’s not the same without you (x2) (Chorus x2)
6.
Molt 04:33
I had it all / It caved on me We gave the world / To be By now you know / This heart will bleed To the unknown / For me In the comfort You create Do you wish To be contained Something new Conceived through mesh We desire Another flesh I had it all / It caved on me We gave the world / To be By now you know / This heart will bleed To the unknown / For me At intervals We will shed Our hollow shells It’s life and death Flowers bloom I haven’t seen New mutations Inside of me I had it all / It caved on me We gave the world / To be By now you know / This heart will bleed To the unknown / For me I had it all...
7.
Trauma 03:30
Smile and wave / Like everything’s okay It’s hard to say / When this is all a game With guilt and shame / I’ll never be the same Give me something else to do / Cause I’m about to go insane The king of hearts / Your favorite card to play You win them all / And break them in a day It’s all my fault / With nothing left to gain Take this stupid halo off so / You can see through my charade Trauma, trauma / I think I’m dying inside I don’t want to be alive Trauma, trauma / I think I hurt myself again I don’t know where to begin You grip me tight / I told you let me go And as I cried / The scars begin to show With all my rage / I’m gonna take you down To watch you beg and plead / Before I put you in the ground Shut your mouth / Don’t play it like we’re cool For my revenge / I’ll break all of the rules I hope you rot / Inside a shallow grave This is all that you deserve / There is no need to give me praise Trauma, trauma / I think I’m dying inside I don’t want to be alive Trauma, trauma / I think I hurt myself again I don’t know where to begin
8.
Melting Core 04:08
O morning sky Our luminescent light My indigo agony heals Soft velvet cries Caressing like a choir The ashen heart kindled in tears To crave purity With a heart to deceive The echoes of loathing endear Into the fire With pain I’ve acquired The vacancy you left for me here Look what they’ve done to you How can this be I fell through I can barely breathe What can I do What should I say So you never lose Our light’s domain
9.
Empty Phases 03:42
(Of all the times, the chances I have given you, you let me down) On the first / I won’t forget The way you said / he took his life And left the line dead How do you think / selfishly You made me hurt so vacantly You let me down / and I know it’s all because of me You let me down / and I know it’s all because of me (cause of me) Of all the times, the chances I have given you, you let me down When I emerge / I will forgive The choice that led / to giving up But never know why A hollow void / You keep me there I’ll drown in tears until you care You let me down / and I know it’s all because of me You let me down / and I know it’s all because of me (cause of me) Of all the times, the chances I have given you, you let me down
10.
To all my friends / I got a blade A sedative / The rope tied Thanks for everything / from the love below Put my finger on the trigger and I’ll let it go Electricity /at my fingertips A gas leak / in case that I forget I’ve got all I need / to get me out of here Leave me be with my remorse and I will disappear I want to hurt myself / i want to hurt myself I want I want I want to hurt myself / I want to hurt myself Hurry up / take me today It always ends / the same way My head won’t clear / when I lose control Please don’t wake me up if I become comatose Does it hurt / if you know That I’m not here / you’ll be alone I surrender now / I won’t leave a note Let me jump, let me shoot, let me overdose I want to hurt myself / i want to hurt myself I want I want I want to hurt myself / I want to hurt myself Let me jump, let me shoot, let me overdose (x4)
11.
Rain 03:36
As I feel you drift away You interest turns to other things on your mind I think I should disappear We can never be if you don’t confide Even though I let you choose I’ll never know the future of you and I The world I keep inside my head Blurs the line of space and time We’ll be fine Moments in time will disappear When blood runs dry I’ll never heal Emotions die when you are near I’ll close my eyes and face my fears Even though you’re here with me The distance in between us will still exist Cleanse my heart with clarity This will be the end if we don’t persist I’ll open up the void for you As you descend into my core you will see The world I made begins to burn From hatred and disdain I’ll die Silently Moments in time will disappear When blood runs dry I’ll never heal Emotions die when you are near I’ll close my eyes and face my fears Cross my heart and hope to die / I can see it in your eyes / You’re just gonna leave me here As I lay myself to wake / I don’t know if I can take / losing self control for you
12.
Be Alive 03:56
You hide behind a gate A ring of keys to break With claim to dissociate Only to instigate I don’t care how bad I’ve hurt Be Alive I don’t care how bad I’ve hurt Be Alive (x3) No one knows the truth No one’s abusing you Manipulate the youth Keep them all confused I don’t care how bad I’ve hurt Be Alive I don’t care how bad I’ve hurt Be Alive (x3) Be alive (x2) Be alive (x4)
13.
0% Angel 03:54
It’s taking over me It’s taking everything I have To keep myself from wanting to be apart of you Inside my ailing mind I bribe myself to think that I am made for you what can I do for us to make it through I know it’s hard to see / The wounds inside of me I’m hiding underneath all my suffering And even if I cry / I’ll never close my eyes To see through all the lies you bestowed to me When all is clarity / the hate you gave to me With all sincerity hurts like a disease The wings that brought you here / will take you far and near But you will always be no angel to me You fill me with distrust I’m writhing in disgust as I Am told another person has loved you till it hurt I want to seep inside I want to sleep beside you when Your heart depends on stranger’s touch just to feel alive I know it’s hard to see / The wounds inside of me I’m hiding underneath all my suffering And even if I cry / I’ll never close my eyes To see through all the lies you bestowed to me When all is clarity / the hate you gave to me With all sincerity hurts like a disease The wings that brought you here / will take you far and near But you will always be no angel to me
14.
Be not broken I have a puzzle heart Left unsolved I Pray you tear it apart It’s fulfillment My dark abysmal start All my nightmares Show my eternal pain Devastation Eating away my brain With no victims / Who can I really blame Twisting, turning / I am searching high and low Locks and keys prevent me from letting go Through this maze discover my failing heart Did you make it out / Please tell me how Try to fight it It’s a confusing maze Wall to wall a Paranoia keeps you sane Look at all the Demons I have hid away I can’t help you I’m off and gone again At my core I Know it is not the end All my ailing / Turn to oblivion Twisting, turning / I am searching high and low Locks and keys prevent me from letting go Through this maze discover my failing heart Did you make it out / Please tell me how (Repeat Chorus)
15.
I don’t mind / being underneath you If you need something to do / I am ready to be used I don’t mind / being overwhelmed You can hurt me to the core / I’ll always ask you for more I don’t mind / taking all your rage You’ve been down this road before / It’s my job to misbehave I don’t mind / taking all the blame You assert the dominance / I will always know my place When you do these things to me / Who am I supposed to be If I don’t reciprocate / Will you let my body break You don’t mind / being underneath me If I need something to do / you’ll be waiting at the boot You don’t mind / being overwhelmed I won’t hurt you like before / You’ll be pleading on the floor You don’t mind / taking all my rage I’ll go down this road again / just to let you feel the pain You don’t mind / taking all the blame As you serve your master well / You will always know your place When you do these things to me / Who am I supposed to be If I don’t reciprocate / Will you let my body break
16.
Cyst 03:38
On a highway Through a memory Take my heart to A kingdom falling down Dragging my feet Through the ruins Give me something To feel the pain again Why do I / feel like this You told me how / My pain was missed You cut me off / Like a cyst As I detach / I won’t resist Heavy eyelids Hide my weakness I’ve forgotten Now I sleep alone Held in amber With my bloodline Spoiled parts of me Sever off the growths Why do I / feel like this You told me how / My pain was missed You cut me off / Like a cyst As I detach / I won’t resist (Repeat Chorus)
17.
Bullet 04:08
It’s not goodnight This is goodbye I cannot promise I’ll see the light I will miss you With all my heart I’ll give you now To tear apart I know a place / Inside of me That I never want to be I needed time / How can’t you see Something is taking over me This is the end / I don’t believe There is anything for me Into the dark / final retreat I’ll take the bullet through my teeth When you grieve Do you believe All your tears Will summon me By space around That should be With lungs of stone I forgot to breathe I know a place / Inside of me That I never want to be I needed time / How can’t you see Something is taking over me This is the end / I don’t believe There is anything for me Into the dark / final retreat I’ll take the bullet through my teeth (Repeat Chorus)
18.
Immurement 04:07
Take a look at me Inside the glass Tell me what you see Behind the mask Take a look at me With blurry eyes Erase the purity Encased in lies Immure me Kill me from inside Immure me I’ve got nothing left to hide Take a look at me My guard is down Did you ever think I’d wear the crown Don’t get close to me You mustn’t touch My fragility An ailing crutch Immure me Kill me from inside Immure me I’ve got nothing left to hide
19.
In Your Arms 03:40
When we first met / i fell apart You carved the words / inside my heart It hurts to breathe / when I’m alone It hurts to be / unknown We’ve got our own grave / with both names / It’s do or die I can’t hear you / but I can feel you / you’re by my side To feel the time move / the hues that paint you / you can’t hide We’ve got our own grave / with both names / it’s you and I Somehow, somewhere / it’s in the air I’m in your arms / I’m in your care Across the floor / our hearts are strewn Exchanging touch / my wounds are sewn We’ve got our own grave / with both names / It’s do or die I can’t hear you / but I can feel you / you’re by my side To feel the time move / the hues that paint you / you can’t hide We’ve got our own grave / with both names / it’s you and I Every night / I try to reach you / There's never a reply If there's a way / I can see you / I am ready to die We’ve got our own grave / with both names / It’s do or die (It’s do or die) I can’t hear you / but I can feel you / you’re by my side (you’re by my side) To feel the time move / the hues that paint you / you can’t hide (you can’t hide) We’ve got our own grave / with both names / it’s you and I (it’s you and I)
20.
In the trees the bird sings Melancholy, reminiscing Where the landscape used to be In the dying embers Lay the ashen part of me On the surface I am weak Do you ever notice If you close your eyes and listen You can hear our mother cry All the pain she’s feeling With the wounds that never heal What will you do to make this right For you it comes so easily This flesh before you gave to me My planet watched my mother breathe They soon took my identity All that I’ve earned so patiently The earth turns cold so they can see This work undone to vacancy You took so much, give it back to me
21.
Home 04:00
Can you feel it Without meaning Or emotions Your kisses lie I can see it Always lifeless You drift away from mine Three words You would tell me It’s clear to see Giving hatred You don’t have to be Someone else for me I’m tired / of feeling / I’m nothing / compared to you I need to get out of here / I don’t know what to do I’ll run to / the edge of / my sanity They look in / the mirror / the way I look at you Your attention And affection As a memory I beg to keep Pulling my strings Giving orders Now you can clearly see I was porcelain In my nature Dying vacantly When you broke me Into pieces You got the best of me I’m tired / of feeling / I’m nothing / compared to you I need to get out of here / I don’t know what to do I’ll run to / the edge of / my sanity They look in / the mirror / the way I look at you (Repeat Chorus)
22.
Anguish 03:26
Into a form My skin will fade After the storm The white air stays It covers the house To keep them inside The water sounds As my feet glide It ends right here if you go away All your memories become an object It ends right here if you go away Like my father did / don’t leave me crying (x2) To be confined I’m kept secure What’s happening Is not to me I’m out numbered By those who feel I wonder how It’s like to be real It ends right here if you go away All your memories become an object It ends right here if you go away Like my father did / don’t leave me crying (x2) (Repeat Chorus)
23.
Bloodletting 02:59
CRY... Hypocrite You complicate / To recommit I lacerate / For innocence The first and last / No one escapes Carry the mask / For your mistakes We’ll burn the sky / Distort the view I’ll wear the blood / You’ll wear the wounds Let’s clear the dust / Of me and you Mouth full of glass / Can’t see the truth Armed to the teeth I’ll avenge / Your pain to me Without a voice / Don’t try to scream Destroying me / Is not a choice A thousand times / Is not enough You burned my eyes . Now I can see I’ve seen a god / But Hell is you What do you mean / You’re in distress I thought you meant / To rest in peace Give your hate to me So I can finally breathe (x4) WHY...
24.
Not Dead Yet 03:34
Where am I How did I get here Who are you You’re from the future Did I live Where are the people What’s the time Are you the reaper Promise me / you will see The pain you brought everyone around me To your goodbye / to your regrets You still have time / you’re not dead yet (x2) Don’t forget This is genocide Give back their prayers You can make this right From the light There are no survivors They will visit But they can’t hear you Promise me / you will see The pain you brought everyone around me To your goodbye / to your regrets You still have time / you’re not dead yet (x2) You’re not dead yet (x4) (Repeat Chorus)
25.
When the time comes My light leaves I’ll descend Till you can’t see When the time comes They’ll take me Where the fire Took my family More than anyone / I want to hurt you More than anything / I want to hurt you (x2) When the times comes Pull me deeper In the water They will cleanse me When the time comes I’ll see through You can’t hurt me I can hurt you More than anyone / I want to hurt you More than anything / I want to hurt you (x2) (Repeat Chorus)
26.
Whip 04:00
I’m secure When you tie me up You’re obsessed With these chains of lust To satisfy I don’t need a ring I’m hypnotized As I cry and scream I’m on my knees / Will you make me yours I bite my lip / Behind the closed doors I will be good / For bruises and sores You’ll break me down / I’ll always endure The coldest touch Burns my flesh I feel your voice Upon my neck To crave your lips I’m on the cusp I won’t get my way As the leather cuts I’m on my knees / Will you make me yours I bite my lip / Behind the closed doors I will be good / For bruises and sores You’ll break me down / I’ll always endure (Repeat Chorus) I’m on my knees Will you make me yours
27.
Hornet 02:52
I can hear The voices of My ruined past I want it back I can feel The hands of time Turning back To save my life I can see The fading light I’m out of here I need to fight I can taste My bloodied mouth Upon the blade That cut me out I can smell The scent of fear Did you think You’d see me here I can heal...
28.
Every night I look out the window With no reason The sorrow held you Did you think The light within you Could reflect What mirrors give you 正しくやりたい I want to make it right I want to make it right (x4) I start to hope You’ll make it through this Please wake up You have to do it With all these terms And new conditions Are you afraid To make commitment 正しくやりたい I want to make it right I want to make it right (x4) I want to make it right (x4) (Repeat Chorus)
29.
In the rise and fall Of your dying breath I still feel you trapped beneath me And I need you now As you cut my flesh I am coming undone And I know that there is No easy way out With my open wounds You will bleed me dry As I break myself I know At least I tried Time will smooth me out Down to ash and dust All the weight is lifted As my memory rusts Let me be the shards Scattered through your past I will pull you through the fragments That kept me attached Just let me go...
30.
In a field of flowers / I will pass the time Counting all the reasons / I must say goodbye With my heart in ruins / All the roses die I will make it through this / And I’ll tell you why You showed me dying / can be beautiful When the clock stops moving / and the earth is full Both my eyes are drenched in darkness / i’ll no longer see All the things that hurt me / I’ll no longer breathe I can feel the sunlight / Leave the atmosphere Everything around / Slowly disappeared I will not forget you / Now I’m on my own All my pain lie dormant / I will let you know You showed me dying / can be beautiful When the clock stops moving / and the earth is full Both my eyes are drenched in darkness / i’ll no longer see All the things that hurt me / I’ll no longer breathe I wouldn’t be here / If it wasn’t for you I couldn’t be there / To save yourself from you Now my wings feel heavy / but i have to prove This is all or nothing / This is all for you / I did it for you You showed me dying / can be beautiful When the clock stops moving / and the earth is full Both my eyes are drenched in darkness / i’ll no longer see All the things that hurt me / I’ll no longer breathe You showed me dying / can be beautiful When the clock stops moving / and the earth is full Both your eyes have closed to sleep now / You are finally free Nothing left to hurt you / may you rest in peace

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